The Holiday Crush

I dont know what it is about the Holidays that gets everyone in the spirit, and maybe its because I watch too many Lifetime and ABC Family movies but lately i have been more and more in the spirit for love.

Since March I started having feelings for a close friend of mine. I can remember exactly when my feelings crossed over from just a friend to more than a friend. He had gone away for his grandfathers funeral and I remember missing him so much that the moment he returned I jumped in a cab over to meet up with our friends at the bar.


I was so happy he was back jn town and just being around him brought me happiness. In reality we are just friends. To him, i am one of the guys, someone he can talk to about music, movies, sports and sadly even women.

We have had a few late night bar chats just the two if us, catching up and even have dabbled in the occasional flirting but everything is pretty harmless.

Recently, he had the chance to meet my parents. It was one of the best moments in our friendship thus far. He was everything I had hoped for when introducing a guy to my parents. Kind, respectful, funny, and grateful for the meal they provided for us.

It seems like more and more each day I think about him. Whether I am waiting on the edge of my seat for him to send me a text or secretly hoping he asks to meet up for drinks, I am always thinking about him.

Like i said, maybe its the Lifetime movies that have rotted my brain but deep down, even if I dont always admit it, I am hoping for a christmas miracle.

A Mini Hiatus

I am not sure how many people even noticed I was gone.  

Have you noticed its been almost a month and a half since I have written.  

Things have been crazy in my life lately and to top it all off I traveled home for the Thanksgiving Holiday and then had my computer completely crash.

I was devastated to see 5 years of my life crumble as the blue screen of death appeared on my computer.

 After a minor panic attack and yes, I will admit, a major meltdown I went to Best Buy, purchased a new hard drive and have begged my brother to ask his co-worker to attempt a recovery of all lost data. 

Its not a few days later and I still haven't accessed my files and my computer has crashed two more times...
I am keeping my fingers crossed that is all works out soon. 

In the meantime many great things have happened to me in the last month.  

Although i would love to write a novel about everything, here is a short synopsis of my life in the last 30 days.

Work has been crazy and after working many late nights during October  I can finally relax a little during our slower weeks.

The second week of November during the Penn State Crisis that has literally shaken the country, 10 guys and myself (yes I was the only female) traveled to Pennsylvania to attend the Penn State vs. Nebraska game.

It was a very emotional weekend for my family (die hard Penn Staters) after the scandal broke on the news.  However, it was very touching and moving to be at this game.  

I also now know what it is like to travel and shack up with all men.

Thank goodness Virgos are planners and "mothers".

Prior to traveling home for the holidays I decided to host my annual Thanksgiving dinner for friends in the area.  This year we beat our attendance with a total of 36 guests.  It was such a great evening of friends, food and board games! I was exhausted the next day and couldn't wait to sleep off all of my hard work. 

For those of you who don't know, Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.  I love driving back to PA to get the very last taste of Fall weather before the snow hits.  I love my mother's cooking, board games with the family, visiting friends from home and relaxing. 

I love pulling up to my parents house.  Immediately I get a wave of emotions and memories.

My parents bough a new scrabble board which was a hit over Thanksgiving

Rifle practice was definitely the most exciting thing we did, however it was also the most hick thing we did

This Thanksgiving, I got to meet Landon, one of my best friends from high school's new baby boy!! It was so exciting to see the new addition to our group! He is going to be a heartbreaker.

After returning back to the hustle and bustle of Washington, DC. I decided to spend my Sunday decorating for Christmas.  I love the holiday season!

Phew....well, that caught you up on the last 30 days of my life.  

Thankfully despite the computer crashing, I am hoping to get back into blogging each day. 

Oh, the places you will go

Oh, the places you will go...
This semi-wordless Wednesday includes beautiful places where I have been and where I hope to go. 

The Skinny on being Fat

Today was a big eye opener at how I am not only letting myself down with weight loss but others as well.  I have always struggled with my weight.  Since I can remember my parents were always questioning how many pieces of bread I had when we were out to eat.  I remember my high school friends looking cute in their short shorts and tiny tops, but I was hiding behind jeans and t-shirts.  


15 years later, nothing much has changed in m life.  I am still eating more than I should.  I am not working out at all and I am more upset with my size than I have ever been before.  


At the beginning of October, I signed up for a boot camp class hoping it would be the best way to kick my butt into gear with weight loss.  I had told a bunch of people about my goal and they promised to check up on me to make sure I was progressing.  What I didn't expect was to leave the first class, more upset with my self than when I started.  Its hard for people to understand what it is like to be overweight unless you have been there before.  Its not only an embarrassment but its disappointing... disappointment in yourself.  I only made it to one boot camp class.  It was hard for me to see myself struggling being surrounded by 14 barbie dolls.  I was embarrassed for how I looked, angry that I was struggling, and frustrated that once again I was going to fail.  


This morning I woke up disappointed that I had failed.  I failed at going to work out this entire year with a year membership, I failed at thinking I could lose weight and get in shape, and I failed at one month of boot camp.  



While reading Facebook today I found an article about a fit man who is going fat to get fit again.  He wants to know what it is like to struggle as an obese person in losing weight.  


http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/why-a-personal-trainer-is-making-himself-obese-on-purpose-2583990



Two of my good friends kept their end of the deal.  They checked in with me today on my progress and I was ashamed to admit I had was not successful.  Although I want to lose the weight something inside of me is holding back on getting out and going to the gym and pushing through the embarrassment.  

Chicago, colds, and cocktails

I apologize for the week delay in posting.  Two weeks ago, I got a horrible cold which left me struggling to make it through the work week.  After that a trip to Chicago and a packed schedule at work kept me extremely busy.  So, I am slightly behind on posting, even more behind on posting these photos.  

My trip to Chicago...

Celebration

Last month was a very exciting month for me career wise, not only was I honored and given an award for the Most Outstanding Event Planner of the Year but I also was given a promotion at work.

Today, I left work with every intention to grab a glass of wine and dinner with friends to celebrate.






I also rewarded myself by signing up for a boot camp in the mornings to attempt my kick start to weight loss







Not looking forward to getting up early, but hopefully when the pounds start to shed I will be happy I signed up.

P.s. Aunt flo came this weekend and I cheated on my no chocolate. Big time fail. I will have to restart it tomorrow.

P.P.S I decided right after typing this that I might as well have a soda if I already cheated with the chocolate. Ok very strict tomorrow!!!

Month #4: My Happiness Project

My September Happiness Project didn't go as perfectly as planned.  I started out strong until my two pair of flat shoes completely wore through and I was left shoe-less.  I ended up stalking up on flats and spending a lot more than planned.  After that shopping spree it was all down hill.  Long work nights forced me to spend money on breakfasts and lunches since I was short on time.


I was upset with myself for failing at last month's happiness project, and in turn found myself not happy at all with my increasing debt.  With that I must focus on a new month and something new to work on, I will just return to the debt issues again on another month. 
  

Month #4

October

Equality amongst friends

I have noticed that as of recently treating others differently. I find myself treating two different people differently even if they have just done the same action.  I want to take this month to try and treat everyone equally. To not hold grudges against people for things I can't control.   As well as to limit gossiping and talking bad about others. 

• Think before talking bad about others
• If I don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all
• Limit gossiping
• Think before I judge
• Smile more